I'm sure everyone read a fairytale story in their lifetime...
From Rapunzel up to the Wizard of Oz, each of them has a good ending..
But if you ponder on it for a while longer... Did their stories end there, or it is just a beginning?
Take Cinderella for example...
First, of course, being bullied by the step family and the end, married with the Prince Charming.
The End... ?
What IF, Cinderella getting married to the hot prince wasn't the last page of the bedtime storybook?
Can the married couple live through happily ever after knowing the huge gap of their status?
What if the prince is a womanizer and has lots of scandal after marriage?
When everyone reads the fairytale, they would expect a Happy Ending. When everyone is satisfied with that ending, people will close the book and call it a day.
The point is....
We as human, actually decides how we end our story.
There is no such thing as we wait for an happy ending to come. Reality doesn't work that way.
If we don't work for the desired ending, It may never come. And sometimes, it is ourselves who choose to end our story abruptly or a bad way. So, who is we to blame..
There are people out there who always say that they don't mean to end it that way. But did you realise the problem had already started at the built up of your story?
Hence, if you dont like your "story", keep on "writing" till your desired ending...
Don't whine... Move on...
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
It ain't about how hard you can hit.
Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.
But it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.
Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!
-Rocky Balboa-
Speaking to his son in Rocky Balboa (2006)
These few days at home, my mom always say that the person my parents worry the most in the family is me. All because I don't seem to get what I always want and I still dream of getting that something in life.
When I replied
"I'm the last person anyone should worry about"
Bullets come flying to my face saying that this is the problem with me. Getting over confident and all. When I say I'm not, they always try to make me believe that I am...
Seriously, I know the answer. I am not over confident. I just truly understands how things work in life better than most of the people out there of my age. Things never comes easy for me and it still does, even now. Should I just give in and and let the environment lead my life?
The obvious answer is No rite. But most of the people just wont understand it when I explain this verbally.. When I say I'm the last person to worry about doesn't mean I am Over Confident, Unrealistic and Still Dreaming.
Its just I understand that in this world, if we can't find a will to move on. We won't be able to get to what we want as well. When people and situations forces us down to our knees, its always up to us to stand up and stand against their will. This is how we shape our world, and quoting above,
This is how winning is done...
remember, this world ain't about rainbow and sunshine. However, we can always find our rainbow and sunshine if we are willing to take the hits. Its about how much you can take and keep moving forward...
However, should I really be the last person one should worry about? This, I'm really not sure...
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Different Light
Days had past since "judgment" day...
And I'm still strong, alive, and accepting facts bit by bit...
It is now I see things in a very different light, just when all my plans started to crumble down from the sky....
To most of us, we think we can see the world by having yourself at the top. But sometimes, things are to be seen when you're down below. Only with the combination of both, we can see everything.
I used to be so hype and positive, I always think that everything is going to be alright. The funny thing is, everything really did turn out ALRIGHT!!! However, when one thing goes wrong, you will feel helpless thinking that its the end of the road for you.
Its only we fall, we have the opportunity to raise up again....
Last time i remember my friend kept asking me what is the difference of a perfect 10 with a 9?
My first answer was, the difference is obvious. 10 is better than 9!!
Then I went home and think again, is it necessary that 10 is always better? And here comes my final conclusion, if we have a 9, we will always know that we have room to improve and develop ourselves. With this in mind, it will suppress our pride.
In this light, a near perfect score of 9 will be better than a perfect 10.
I'm beginning to to see things differently, Its slow but its definitely progressing....
Thanks for all your support in pulling me through. Its only now I've learn there are many people around me.. lol.. And its now I know what there are many people reading this post... Including some people who I don't expect at all.
Btw, a lot of people asked why I look so differently from how I portray in life. Look at the header, this is where I unmask. But don't worry, I'm still real with or without the mask. Just that I don't want so many people worry about me sometimes..haha
Take care....
And I'm still strong, alive, and accepting facts bit by bit...
It is now I see things in a very different light, just when all my plans started to crumble down from the sky....
To most of us, we think we can see the world by having yourself at the top. But sometimes, things are to be seen when you're down below. Only with the combination of both, we can see everything.
I used to be so hype and positive, I always think that everything is going to be alright. The funny thing is, everything really did turn out ALRIGHT!!! However, when one thing goes wrong, you will feel helpless thinking that its the end of the road for you.
Its only we fall, we have the opportunity to raise up again....
Last time i remember my friend kept asking me what is the difference of a perfect 10 with a 9?
My first answer was, the difference is obvious. 10 is better than 9!!
Then I went home and think again, is it necessary that 10 is always better? And here comes my final conclusion, if we have a 9, we will always know that we have room to improve and develop ourselves. With this in mind, it will suppress our pride.
In this light, a near perfect score of 9 will be better than a perfect 10.
I'm beginning to to see things differently, Its slow but its definitely progressing....
Thanks for all your support in pulling me through. Its only now I've learn there are many people around me.. lol.. And its now I know what there are many people reading this post... Including some people who I don't expect at all.
Btw, a lot of people asked why I look so differently from how I portray in life. Look at the header, this is where I unmask. But don't worry, I'm still real with or without the mask. Just that I don't want so many people worry about me sometimes..haha
Take care....
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Stars Fading
Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath.....
Its been 4 year and reality never smack that hard on my face before.
My dream of working in an open ocean oil rig came to an end today....
It all ended when Dr Noordin told me it was extremely difficult to get into geophysics based on my STPM results. However, he told me to take up masters in geophysics,
but seriously, that is the future. 3 years down the road, can I still make it?
I didn't know how much would my disastrous STPM result will effect me till today.
Just when I thought I can change my past and start anew, past failures come haunting me again..
I guess, there is no such thing as running away from history. When your record is scratched, nothing can mend it except a time machine to bring my back to 2007. I really wish i can go back to 2007 and bash up the old lazy me who is unwilling to work and take things for granted.
I know I've changed pretty much today compared to 2007. But sometimes, its just too late. The lesson here is
"Change your destiny when you still have the chance. Change it now, never wait for tomorrow"
When people tell me the last 8 weeks before STPM can change your life for the next 40 year, it is really true, I truly and regretfully understand it today.
I should had change it back in 2007....... in 2009, its all over.
I really don't know how should I act now. I'm surely not happy, but I can't spread the infectious emotional virus to my friends around me. Seriously, I think my coursemates won't understand my emotions now as they all hope I can stay in Applied Stats.
For the first time, I really feel like crying, but I really don't know how. The only thing I need to tell myself is to move on and live your current reality. This period will be a lone journey as I don't expect people to understand my passion to work in the middle of the ocean.
I only know now I need to accept facts that I need to work well in my finals next month so I wont regret in the future like now. This is tough and why god put me in such paths. Just to understand pain better than other people?
Do I really deserve this?
Yes I do,
And you can just put the blame on me. I don't have excuses
Pull me through..... pull me through... please
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath.....
Its been 4 year and reality never smack that hard on my face before.
My dream of working in an open ocean oil rig came to an end today....
It all ended when Dr Noordin told me it was extremely difficult to get into geophysics based on my STPM results. However, he told me to take up masters in geophysics,
but seriously, that is the future. 3 years down the road, can I still make it?
I didn't know how much would my disastrous STPM result will effect me till today.
Just when I thought I can change my past and start anew, past failures come haunting me again..
I guess, there is no such thing as running away from history. When your record is scratched, nothing can mend it except a time machine to bring my back to 2007. I really wish i can go back to 2007 and bash up the old lazy me who is unwilling to work and take things for granted.
I know I've changed pretty much today compared to 2007. But sometimes, its just too late. The lesson here is
"Change your destiny when you still have the chance. Change it now, never wait for tomorrow"
When people tell me the last 8 weeks before STPM can change your life for the next 40 year, it is really true, I truly and regretfully understand it today.
I should had change it back in 2007....... in 2009, its all over.
I really don't know how should I act now. I'm surely not happy, but I can't spread the infectious emotional virus to my friends around me. Seriously, I think my coursemates won't understand my emotions now as they all hope I can stay in Applied Stats.
For the first time, I really feel like crying, but I really don't know how. The only thing I need to tell myself is to move on and live your current reality. This period will be a lone journey as I don't expect people to understand my passion to work in the middle of the ocean.
I only know now I need to accept facts that I need to work well in my finals next month so I wont regret in the future like now. This is tough and why god put me in such paths. Just to understand pain better than other people?
Do I really deserve this?
Yes I do,
And you can just put the blame on me. I don't have excuses
Pull me through..... pull me through... please
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Isn't it a little too late?
Its had already been 10 months in USM....
And I only start to cherish my coursemates now.....
I seriously regret my actions of not acknowledging them as my closest friends as they had already treated me one of their own long long time ago. Its only till yesterday in the Maths Night I realize this might be the last Maths Night I'm attending. I MIGHT be entering the School of Physics next year...
They had indeed been a great bunch. The thing I appreciated the most is having they accepting me in their activities even though I am huge language barrier. Sometimes having them speaking Cantonese for me makes me feel kinda happy as I can communicate!! haha...
As return, I minimize my usage of English as I know they doesn't feel comfortable with it...
1 more month left, and only I realize the importance of Non- AIESEC friends... yikes...
And I only start to cherish my coursemates now.....
I seriously regret my actions of not acknowledging them as my closest friends as they had already treated me one of their own long long time ago. Its only till yesterday in the Maths Night I realize this might be the last Maths Night I'm attending. I MIGHT be entering the School of Physics next year...
They had indeed been a great bunch. The thing I appreciated the most is having they accepting me in their activities even though I am huge language barrier. Sometimes having them speaking Cantonese for me makes me feel kinda happy as I can communicate!! haha...
As return, I minimize my usage of English as I know they doesn't feel comfortable with it...
1 more month left, and only I realize the importance of Non- AIESEC friends... yikes...
Friday, February 20, 2009
The Schemer
Two-Face: It was your men, your plan!
The Joker: Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just... do things. The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon's got plans. You know, they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I'm not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. So, when I say... Ah, come here.
[takes Dent's hand into his own]
The Joker: When I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know that I'm telling the truth. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and look where that got you.
[Dent tries to grab the Joker]
The Joker: I just did what I do best. I took your little plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. Hmmm? You know... You know what I've noticed? Nobody panics when things go "according to plan." Even if the plan is horrifying! If, tomorrow, I tell the press that, like, a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all "part of the plan." But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!
When I see the Joker... this quote always come to my mine...
Is being an "good" planner necessarily a good thing?. Yes, everyone admits and say that I plan well and stuffs like that. Some even say my ability to plan ahead is an asset as you have to be somewhat bright to be able to "see" the future...
But have you ever wonder.... If everything is planned ahead, where is the element of surprise?
Everything I do will become predictable and hence my competitors can counter my strategies easily. Nothing is fun anymore when its planned. And when the strategies doesn't goes as planned, I'm the one under fire again... gosh....
In order to counter my abilities, these few months, I realized I need to come up with at least 2 or 3 plans to counter each other if it fails...
in other words, I've became a schemer... naturally...
This is totally not something I'm proud of... but currently the only plan I'm able to pull off completely is the one i put on Evelyn.. and that worked pretty well. Other plans are still undergoing and seriously, I'm not having fun because everything I do have a hidden purpose behind it... why can't I be normal and do things spontaneously...
Being analytical had made me a very serious man...
and to some people... this is not a way to live.....
The Joker: Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just... do things. The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon's got plans. You know, they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I'm not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. So, when I say... Ah, come here.
[takes Dent's hand into his own]
The Joker: When I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know that I'm telling the truth. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and look where that got you.
[Dent tries to grab the Joker]
The Joker: I just did what I do best. I took your little plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. Hmmm? You know... You know what I've noticed? Nobody panics when things go "according to plan." Even if the plan is horrifying! If, tomorrow, I tell the press that, like, a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all "part of the plan." But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!
When I see the Joker... this quote always come to my mine...
Is being an "good" planner necessarily a good thing?. Yes, everyone admits and say that I plan well and stuffs like that. Some even say my ability to plan ahead is an asset as you have to be somewhat bright to be able to "see" the future...
But have you ever wonder.... If everything is planned ahead, where is the element of surprise?
Everything I do will become predictable and hence my competitors can counter my strategies easily. Nothing is fun anymore when its planned. And when the strategies doesn't goes as planned, I'm the one under fire again... gosh....
In order to counter my abilities, these few months, I realized I need to come up with at least 2 or 3 plans to counter each other if it fails...
in other words, I've became a schemer... naturally...
This is totally not something I'm proud of... but currently the only plan I'm able to pull off completely is the one i put on Evelyn.. and that worked pretty well. Other plans are still undergoing and seriously, I'm not having fun because everything I do have a hidden purpose behind it... why can't I be normal and do things spontaneously...
Being analytical had made me a very serious man...
and to some people... this is not a way to live.....
Monday, February 16, 2009
The Apprentice
"I'm a fast learner, Don't Worry"
That was what I told all the members of the floor in my acceptance speech a month plus ago...
When i told you don't worry, it may mean I'm worrying in someway or another...
However, I totally believe I'm able to pull it through..
I was in Kuala Lumpur for the past Valentine weekend... Nah, it wasn't for fun or things like that la, though I wish it was for a holiday in some part of it. Yea, I was up there for "work" purposes again. This time for the AIESEC MC transition camp.
Of course, technical stuffs were transited to us. I'm incharge of the incoming exchange part, which means I'm the Sales and Delivery guy in a normal company.. and some old memories and energy did came back.
I remember back in late 2004, where me and my exco board of MMB went out to find sponsorship for our band. I still remember I was excited to look for funds everyday as it was a very new experience compared to the usual sectional music practise of the band. I still remember during that time, The Apprentice had just ran its first season where Bill Rancic became the first apprentice of Donald Trump. During that time, Bill Rancic was just 25 years old and is already a CEO of a multi million cigar company, before he joined the reality show. I was really inspired..
I still remember I woke up every morning during that December school break, eager to go to out to find funds using "marketing skills" learned from The Apprentice. And due to that energy, we were getting 4 digit figure money into the account everyday from a sleepy town of Ipoh. Oh my, Those were the days. I used to tell my dad my success stories everyday and all the different kind of people we met along the way...
2009....
4 years had past and I haven't been touching anything near Sales. I always wanted a Sales experience but I'm not willing to take up management courses . I believe I will have a upper hand among other salesman if I'm from a scientific background as I can analyse better.
In less than one months time, I'll be going for my first marketing trip and hopefully I can convince some company to accept and adopt our international internship programme. And all of a sudden, I'm back in the Apprentice mode.
There are good and bad thing in my Apprentice mode though...
The good thing
I'm more prepared to go out to negotiate with other people,
I handle rejection better, not only in sales aspect,
I'm more optimistic,
and I'm actually willing to study whenever I'm free as I know I dont have extra time like last time..
The bad thing...
I don't go out as much anymore...
I'll exercise less, which means I'll gain more weight... gosh..
I don't have much time for family and friends...
I don't think about relationships that frequent
I can't go back to Ipoh as often anymore...
I really don't hope the bad things will occur to me that much..That was purely based on my past experience in the 2004...
I still want to be alive and kicking!!
But anyway, If not for the MC's, I don't think I'll get into this mode... All thanks to Cafrey, Daryl and Jai... now I know what to do. I want to shoutout my special thanks to Elaine... gosh, she is the one who made the wake up call that I should double up my learning pace in ICX...
To Siong, Emily and Jasmine, its very nice to know you more...
and to ching... its really nice to see you around. Your presence made me feel more comfortable in the MC's office as I can always have the idea in my head where I know someone close there...
Thatz all from me now... this is the first week after half a semester where I'm actually free to do my other stuffs... lol...
cyaz people...
That was what I told all the members of the floor in my acceptance speech a month plus ago...
When i told you don't worry, it may mean I'm worrying in someway or another...
However, I totally believe I'm able to pull it through..
I was in Kuala Lumpur for the past Valentine weekend... Nah, it wasn't for fun or things like that la, though I wish it was for a holiday in some part of it. Yea, I was up there for "work" purposes again. This time for the AIESEC MC transition camp.
Of course, technical stuffs were transited to us. I'm incharge of the incoming exchange part, which means I'm the Sales and Delivery guy in a normal company.. and some old memories and energy did came back.
I remember back in late 2004, where me and my exco board of MMB went out to find sponsorship for our band. I still remember I was excited to look for funds everyday as it was a very new experience compared to the usual sectional music practise of the band. I still remember during that time, The Apprentice had just ran its first season where Bill Rancic became the first apprentice of Donald Trump. During that time, Bill Rancic was just 25 years old and is already a CEO of a multi million cigar company, before he joined the reality show. I was really inspired..
I still remember I woke up every morning during that December school break, eager to go to out to find funds using "marketing skills" learned from The Apprentice. And due to that energy, we were getting 4 digit figure money into the account everyday from a sleepy town of Ipoh. Oh my, Those were the days. I used to tell my dad my success stories everyday and all the different kind of people we met along the way...
2009....
4 years had past and I haven't been touching anything near Sales. I always wanted a Sales experience but I'm not willing to take up management courses . I believe I will have a upper hand among other salesman if I'm from a scientific background as I can analyse better.
In less than one months time, I'll be going for my first marketing trip and hopefully I can convince some company to accept and adopt our international internship programme. And all of a sudden, I'm back in the Apprentice mode.
There are good and bad thing in my Apprentice mode though...
The good thing
I'm more prepared to go out to negotiate with other people,
I handle rejection better, not only in sales aspect,
I'm more optimistic,
and I'm actually willing to study whenever I'm free as I know I dont have extra time like last time..
The bad thing...
I don't go out as much anymore...
I'll exercise less, which means I'll gain more weight... gosh..
I don't have much time for family and friends...
I don't think about relationships that frequent
I can't go back to Ipoh as often anymore...
I really don't hope the bad things will occur to me that much..That was purely based on my past experience in the 2004...
I still want to be alive and kicking!!
But anyway, If not for the MC's, I don't think I'll get into this mode... All thanks to Cafrey, Daryl and Jai... now I know what to do. I want to shoutout my special thanks to Elaine... gosh, she is the one who made the wake up call that I should double up my learning pace in ICX...
To Siong, Emily and Jasmine, its very nice to know you more...
and to ching... its really nice to see you around. Your presence made me feel more comfortable in the MC's office as I can always have the idea in my head where I know someone close there...
Thatz all from me now... this is the first week after half a semester where I'm actually free to do my other stuffs... lol...
cyaz people...
Monday, February 2, 2009
Confessions of a Home Boy
Ola.. Its back in the uni...
I was way too busy to blog during last week's holiday...
Its either celebration by day or AIESEC transition and Calculus by night.. There is no ending...
This CNY had indeed been the most "hectic" and fun celebration of the numerous celebrations I had. I went from house to house and activities almost every night in the my hometown, which is Ipoh. Who said Ipoh isn't happening. It all depends on you aite...
It was fun meeting back with old friends day after day. They just have endless story to share everyday. Most of them haven't change a bit since high school days. I guess the only fella who change is me...again....
Sometimes i do wish I'm studying in UM or UPM. Like that, I can see them more often, but sad to say, I'm the only one in the Island while the rest are all down south. The nearest to me should be Teikz and Sai Mun, who both stranded halfway at Nibong Tebal...
Actually, I wrote this post because I had a pretty unusual feeling being back in the campus this time. This is the first time I'm actually feeling sad about leaving home. And I'm not the type of person who get homesick, till now I guess...
Before this, home sickness was never an issue to me. But it is only due to the reason I know when is my next trip home all the time. On the way back,I sat on the bus thinking when I can actually be back. After realising all my weekends are fully packed for this month, I stop thinking about when I actually can go back home... My next trip back might be in April,.... if I have the time...
Sometimes, its pretty sickening as my home is just 1 hour 45 minutes away and yet I can't go back as often as my fellow Ipoh coursemates does. To make situations more tempting, I have long weekends every week as my Fridays are off days for this semester. Like they say, so near yet so far... I'm pretty envious of those staying in penang as they can at least get the idea of home is always within reach, that is already comforting enough..
There aren't anyone to blame actually. Nothing is wrong, just the timing ain't right this time. The thing which i miss most are my parents and sis. I always try to get home when my sis is back from singapore so my parents would get a perfect reunion. However, even during last sememter, I only made it back on such occasion 1 out of 4 times..
probably its high time to call back home more often this time...
I was way too busy to blog during last week's holiday...
Its either celebration by day or AIESEC transition and Calculus by night.. There is no ending...
This CNY had indeed been the most "hectic" and fun celebration of the numerous celebrations I had. I went from house to house and activities almost every night in the my hometown, which is Ipoh. Who said Ipoh isn't happening. It all depends on you aite...
It was fun meeting back with old friends day after day. They just have endless story to share everyday. Most of them haven't change a bit since high school days. I guess the only fella who change is me...again....
Sometimes i do wish I'm studying in UM or UPM. Like that, I can see them more often, but sad to say, I'm the only one in the Island while the rest are all down south. The nearest to me should be Teikz and Sai Mun, who both stranded halfway at Nibong Tebal...
Actually, I wrote this post because I had a pretty unusual feeling being back in the campus this time. This is the first time I'm actually feeling sad about leaving home. And I'm not the type of person who get homesick, till now I guess...
Before this, home sickness was never an issue to me. But it is only due to the reason I know when is my next trip home all the time. On the way back,I sat on the bus thinking when I can actually be back. After realising all my weekends are fully packed for this month, I stop thinking about when I actually can go back home... My next trip back might be in April,.... if I have the time...
Sometimes, its pretty sickening as my home is just 1 hour 45 minutes away and yet I can't go back as often as my fellow Ipoh coursemates does. To make situations more tempting, I have long weekends every week as my Fridays are off days for this semester. Like they say, so near yet so far... I'm pretty envious of those staying in penang as they can at least get the idea of home is always within reach, that is already comforting enough..
There aren't anyone to blame actually. Nothing is wrong, just the timing ain't right this time. The thing which i miss most are my parents and sis. I always try to get home when my sis is back from singapore so my parents would get a perfect reunion. However, even during last sememter, I only made it back on such occasion 1 out of 4 times..
probably its high time to call back home more often this time...
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Its the end where I begin...
10.34 am
I was still asleep. I really don't feel like waking up as I lazy to stay awake waiting for the AGM that will happen at night. I slept quite late the night before. I initially have some duty at Penang State Maths Quiz replacing one of my coursemate as an examiner. However, I've decided on the day before that I wont be attending as my mental health and concentration wont be up the mark that day due to the anxiety.
10.35 am
My phone rang. Initially I thought it was an alarm, but soon after when I heard of the Metro Station's ringtone, I knew one of my AIESEC-ers are calling. Yes indeed, it was Serena.
Serena : Good Morning Wilson!! What are you doing now?
Wilson : Sleeping La....
Serena : Ok, this will definately wake you up. How about I offer you the position of VP of Finance
and Admin...
Wilson: Yea, Why not, Like I said during the interview, I'll take it with an open heart
Serena :OK, how about VP of Incoming Exchange (ICX) ?
. . . . .
Wait.... is this a test or something?... VP of ICX?!! Got to be kidding rite... its such a high position suited only for experienced exchangers. I on the other hand is a Talent Management and Communication guy. ICX?... Hmmm...
. . . . .
Wilson : I dont think so. Because this department is very important and they need someone who
is very experience in handling it...
Serena : Okay... I'll see you tonight...
Even after that conversation, I though I was in a dream... VP of ICX.... This is really not my field before... I know I'm willing to lern and stuff but isn't there better candidates to choose from me as there are another 3 candidate running for this position? technically speaking, there is around 6 potential candidates to choose from besides me... this is so not going to happen...haha
10.48am
Another phone call from serena... this better be good...haha,
Serena : Heyz, actually I forgotten to tell you, we are splitting up the department in to 2. One
specializing in Management Trainee and Technical Trainee, another one on
Development Trainee and Education trainee. We are doing this because ICX is
a very huge department and we need specialised person to do the job. So Wilson, can
you handle DT and ET?
Wilson : DT and ET huh... ok... Shouldn't be a problem, but I need at least 1 month to get hold of
my departmental knowledge.
Serena : Cool, so wait for the results tonight la yea, and dont tell anyone of the call till after agm,
Even Jia Xiang....
Wahlauweh.... early in the morning give me something to muse already...hahaha
But it had been quite a month. This a a january i'll never forget in my life.
and Finally, elections over...
The grueling test of determination, passion and faith had came to an end after 1 month..
And I'm proud of what I've achieve....
I'm the New...
Local Committee Vice President of Incoming Exchange Department
Development Trainee and Education Trainee
(LC VP ICX - DT & ET)
yea, I know, the position's name is bloody long... And at first, I though that serena tld me this morning was a prank. Soon after that, I only knew this is a new initiative during the last AIESEC Cheiftain's Meet. This department is formed to drive growth in exchange numbers.
Well, I know eveything happened for a reason, but looks like I need to know why am I chosen. I roughly know la listening to evelyn, but I need my own personal point of view as well... Give me a day or two, I'll figure it out...haha
okla.... i gtg de, btw, this is the new board in AIESEC USM , the most Dynamic Board in the UNI...haha
Local Committee President : Evelyn Chan
Vice President of Incoming Exchange (MT & TT) - Tan Ken Jee
Vice President of Incoming Exchange (DT & ET) - Ng Wai Soon, Wilson
Vice President of Outgoing Exchange - Muslih
Vice President of Talent Management - Tan Hui Fong
Vice President of Project Management - Tina Carmillia
Vice President of Communication and Information Management - Liew Jia Xiang
Vice President of Finance and Administration - Michele Chang
Wahlauweh....
cyaz people
PS; I cant wait for CNY.. gosh, I miss my family...
I was still asleep. I really don't feel like waking up as I lazy to stay awake waiting for the AGM that will happen at night. I slept quite late the night before. I initially have some duty at Penang State Maths Quiz replacing one of my coursemate as an examiner. However, I've decided on the day before that I wont be attending as my mental health and concentration wont be up the mark that day due to the anxiety.
10.35 am
My phone rang. Initially I thought it was an alarm, but soon after when I heard of the Metro Station's ringtone, I knew one of my AIESEC-ers are calling. Yes indeed, it was Serena.
Serena : Good Morning Wilson!! What are you doing now?
Wilson : Sleeping La....
Serena : Ok, this will definately wake you up. How about I offer you the position of VP of Finance
and Admin...
Wilson: Yea, Why not, Like I said during the interview, I'll take it with an open heart
Serena :OK, how about VP of Incoming Exchange (ICX) ?
. . . . .
Wait.... is this a test or something?... VP of ICX?!! Got to be kidding rite... its such a high position suited only for experienced exchangers. I on the other hand is a Talent Management and Communication guy. ICX?... Hmmm...
. . . . .
Wilson : I dont think so. Because this department is very important and they need someone who
is very experience in handling it...
Serena : Okay... I'll see you tonight...
Even after that conversation, I though I was in a dream... VP of ICX.... This is really not my field before... I know I'm willing to lern and stuff but isn't there better candidates to choose from me as there are another 3 candidate running for this position? technically speaking, there is around 6 potential candidates to choose from besides me... this is so not going to happen...haha
10.48am
Another phone call from serena... this better be good...haha,
Serena : Heyz, actually I forgotten to tell you, we are splitting up the department in to 2. One
specializing in Management Trainee and Technical Trainee, another one on
Development Trainee and Education trainee. We are doing this because ICX is
a very huge department and we need specialised person to do the job. So Wilson, can
you handle DT and ET?
Wilson : DT and ET huh... ok... Shouldn't be a problem, but I need at least 1 month to get hold of
my departmental knowledge.
Serena : Cool, so wait for the results tonight la yea, and dont tell anyone of the call till after agm,
Even Jia Xiang....
Wahlauweh.... early in the morning give me something to muse already...hahaha
But it had been quite a month. This a a january i'll never forget in my life.
and Finally, elections over...
The grueling test of determination, passion and faith had came to an end after 1 month..
And I'm proud of what I've achieve....
I'm the New...
Local Committee Vice President of Incoming Exchange Department
Development Trainee and Education Trainee
(LC VP ICX - DT & ET)
yea, I know, the position's name is bloody long... And at first, I though that serena tld me this morning was a prank. Soon after that, I only knew this is a new initiative during the last AIESEC Cheiftain's Meet. This department is formed to drive growth in exchange numbers.
Well, I know eveything happened for a reason, but looks like I need to know why am I chosen. I roughly know la listening to evelyn, but I need my own personal point of view as well... Give me a day or two, I'll figure it out...haha
okla.... i gtg de, btw, this is the new board in AIESEC USM , the most Dynamic Board in the UNI...haha
Local Committee President : Evelyn Chan
Vice President of Incoming Exchange (MT & TT) - Tan Ken Jee
Vice President of Incoming Exchange (DT & ET) - Ng Wai Soon, Wilson
Vice President of Outgoing Exchange - Muslih
Vice President of Talent Management - Tan Hui Fong
Vice President of Project Management - Tina Carmillia
Vice President of Communication and Information Management - Liew Jia Xiang
Vice President of Finance and Administration - Michele Chang
Wahlauweh....
cyaz people
PS; I cant wait for CNY.. gosh, I miss my family...
Friday, January 16, 2009
When 99% is never enough....
Hi people I'm back from ONE MONTH hiatus.
I'm so so sorry guys. I know I kept you all waiting for my latest story. But last month, things happened too fast till I don't have enough time to write it all. Whenever I wanted to write about something, another thing happened that omitted the first story.
To keep things simple, last 4 weeks was AIESEC election. And its pretty obvious I ran for election. Running for elections was never easy in the first place, what more if it's AIESEC's election? If an elections last 4 weeks, its got to be a hell of a ride....
Week one....
This was the week right after MyLDS. I've determine myself that I will run for an executive board position right after the last day. I was looking forward to the application package in my mail box. But soon after that, I knew I wanted to run for the elections all for the wrong reasons. I kinda use it as a chance to prove myself to others and to acquirre experience. Soon after that, I asked myself a question, am I doing this to satisfy myself or the good of my beloved LC?
And yea, I abandon my applications for a while. I need to find a real reason why am I doing this. 3 days later, I found an answer, I'm should be doing this to add value to the LC! I can't be selfish, leaders must be a giver and never put taking as a main priority. So, thatz my ultimatum. I understood why I lost in the Mock MCP elections. I stood back up and regenerated a brand new me. * so now you know the main motivation of Wilson V2's build up*
Week two...
I've decided to go for the highest position, which is the Local Committee president. Sometimes, even now, I still think why I ran for such high position. Its like a junior MP running straight to the Prime Minister's position. Its quite a bold decision to make la.. It took A LOT OF COURAGE. A little less and you will fall. My dad don't understand why I took such risk knowing the percentage of winning it is pretty low ( at least for now as I'm new).
He told me that
"Son, I know its good to aim high but this time, I have to disagree with you, its a little too high for your current standard"
Yeah!! I'm aware of that la... I'm not blind. Probably I'm the youngest in terms of AIESEC age to run for LCP in AIESEC Malaysia's history. Guys in the upper level must be wondering what this chap can do or wonder is this chap out of his mind...haha... But my ultimate aim is to see how far I can really go with my two hands.
Week 3,
This is AIESEC Malaysia Member Committee Election week. This event is what we "suppose" to aim for in years to come... Its like Pilihan Raya Umno Peringkat Tinggi. Seriously, it was intense, and I gain a lot of insights from it. Me being a noob in official elections eventually became a pro in writing election speeches after that event. Although I did learn a few tricks from Evon and her dad suring the last General Elections tour with DAP, things are put into practise in evens like this.
After the elections, I met up with Kean Siong. Apparently, he is my Sifu from the Member Committee. He was glad to see me running for elections, especially for the postition of LCP. He did told me this thing which i find it amusing at times la, but it shows how much faith he has in me...
"You know Wilson, my first impression of you during MyLDS is you will be someone great and big in AIESEC. Therefore, running for LCP suits your magnitude "
I hope he didn't mean my size..haha... but seriously It meant a lot to me, especially from me doubting my move. I am finally, ready to go on greather heights.
Week 4,
Election Week. Gosh, Thank god this week, my lecture wasn't pack(8 hours postponed). I had a hard time doing the proper slide for my presentation. I did the fist slide, It was very "political", hence I took it away.. I did the second slide, it was very "emotional", I took it down. My third slide was pretty "professional", now thatz what I'm talking about.
During the EGM, I manage to deliver my speech in a very different manner. Its very Wai Soon la, if you know what I mean... Full of power and no stopping... Just like the good old days. After that speech, I knew if I can't pass the vote of confidence, I really dont know where ot improve on because its I've put in my 110%, Till a certain extend, my performance wasn't the usual Wai Soon.
In the end, I manage to pass the VOC with 85.7% level of confidence. Evelyn and Muslih manage to pass to with 78.5% and 71.4% each. We all needed 66% to go to the final selection round la.
In the after the selection, Evelyn became the LCP Elect due to her performance in the final interview, and i'm actually very proud of her. Only knowing her closely for two month, I knew she will be the best person to lead the LC to greather heights.
Week 5
Gosh, it was this week is the last week fo the process. I admit I didnt do well in the LCP interview but I did fare a fairly good job in the LCVP's interview. But things got harder when the position i'm vying for have a total of 4 candidates. So fingers cross and hopefully by tmr, I'll be on board the most dynamic team in USM...
So guys, that pretty what I've done so far... sorry for the hiatus.... I dont think it will happen again though..haha...
take care people...
I'm so so sorry guys. I know I kept you all waiting for my latest story. But last month, things happened too fast till I don't have enough time to write it all. Whenever I wanted to write about something, another thing happened that omitted the first story.
To keep things simple, last 4 weeks was AIESEC election. And its pretty obvious I ran for election. Running for elections was never easy in the first place, what more if it's AIESEC's election? If an elections last 4 weeks, its got to be a hell of a ride....
Week one....
This was the week right after MyLDS. I've determine myself that I will run for an executive board position right after the last day. I was looking forward to the application package in my mail box. But soon after that, I knew I wanted to run for the elections all for the wrong reasons. I kinda use it as a chance to prove myself to others and to acquirre experience. Soon after that, I asked myself a question, am I doing this to satisfy myself or the good of my beloved LC?
And yea, I abandon my applications for a while. I need to find a real reason why am I doing this. 3 days later, I found an answer, I'm should be doing this to add value to the LC! I can't be selfish, leaders must be a giver and never put taking as a main priority. So, thatz my ultimatum. I understood why I lost in the Mock MCP elections. I stood back up and regenerated a brand new me. * so now you know the main motivation of Wilson V2's build up*
Week two...
I've decided to go for the highest position, which is the Local Committee president. Sometimes, even now, I still think why I ran for such high position. Its like a junior MP running straight to the Prime Minister's position. Its quite a bold decision to make la.. It took A LOT OF COURAGE. A little less and you will fall. My dad don't understand why I took such risk knowing the percentage of winning it is pretty low ( at least for now as I'm new).
He told me that
"Son, I know its good to aim high but this time, I have to disagree with you, its a little too high for your current standard"
Yeah!! I'm aware of that la... I'm not blind. Probably I'm the youngest in terms of AIESEC age to run for LCP in AIESEC Malaysia's history. Guys in the upper level must be wondering what this chap can do or wonder is this chap out of his mind...haha... But my ultimate aim is to see how far I can really go with my two hands.
Week 3,
This is AIESEC Malaysia Member Committee Election week. This event is what we "suppose" to aim for in years to come... Its like Pilihan Raya Umno Peringkat Tinggi. Seriously, it was intense, and I gain a lot of insights from it. Me being a noob in official elections eventually became a pro in writing election speeches after that event. Although I did learn a few tricks from Evon and her dad suring the last General Elections tour with DAP, things are put into practise in evens like this.
After the elections, I met up with Kean Siong. Apparently, he is my Sifu from the Member Committee. He was glad to see me running for elections, especially for the postition of LCP. He did told me this thing which i find it amusing at times la, but it shows how much faith he has in me...
"You know Wilson, my first impression of you during MyLDS is you will be someone great and big in AIESEC. Therefore, running for LCP suits your magnitude "
I hope he didn't mean my size..haha... but seriously It meant a lot to me, especially from me doubting my move. I am finally, ready to go on greather heights.
Week 4,
Election Week. Gosh, Thank god this week, my lecture wasn't pack(8 hours postponed). I had a hard time doing the proper slide for my presentation. I did the fist slide, It was very "political", hence I took it away.. I did the second slide, it was very "emotional", I took it down. My third slide was pretty "professional", now thatz what I'm talking about.
During the EGM, I manage to deliver my speech in a very different manner. Its very Wai Soon la, if you know what I mean... Full of power and no stopping... Just like the good old days. After that speech, I knew if I can't pass the vote of confidence, I really dont know where ot improve on because its I've put in my 110%, Till a certain extend, my performance wasn't the usual Wai Soon.
In the end, I manage to pass the VOC with 85.7% level of confidence. Evelyn and Muslih manage to pass to with 78.5% and 71.4% each. We all needed 66% to go to the final selection round la.
In the after the selection, Evelyn became the LCP Elect due to her performance in the final interview, and i'm actually very proud of her. Only knowing her closely for two month, I knew she will be the best person to lead the LC to greather heights.
Week 5
Gosh, it was this week is the last week fo the process. I admit I didnt do well in the LCP interview but I did fare a fairly good job in the LCVP's interview. But things got harder when the position i'm vying for have a total of 4 candidates. So fingers cross and hopefully by tmr, I'll be on board the most dynamic team in USM...
So guys, that pretty what I've done so far... sorry for the hiatus.... I dont think it will happen again though..haha...
take care people...
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