Sunday, November 16, 2008

Now... I feel like going home..

It pretty weird to when I didn't want to go home for the past 4 weeks,
Its not like I don't wanna go back la but I just don't have the urge to...
I came back to the varsity yesterday for my last paper tomorrow...

Its only now, I really feel like going home...
The uni doesn't feels like the usual anymore...

Most of my friends are gone back home...
There are only a few rooms lighted up on my floor
The mamak is deserted..
The cafe is empty...
Life just isnt here anymore...

From yesterday till now I only slept around 4 hours... This make things worst as I'm feeling pretty fatigue rite now from the studying.....

I really need a break, a real one and i'm looking forward to finish up my exams tomorrow....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

How Far I've Come..

Hey fellas... Hows life treating you?
I know some of you had been surfin in and out of this site to check whether I've update my blog on my Birthday but sorry to say.. I was really really busy, even on my birthday....
Now that all of my core papers are over, I think I can steal some time from my Minor paper to blog..haha

Neways, my Birthday lasted 3 days.. lol...

8th Nov - Pre-Celebration at pizza hut and tanjung bungah with Maths School Coursemates
9th Nov - .....
10th Now - Post - Celebration at Gee Tomyam with fellow AIESECers..


You got to be wondering whatz up with all the dots there on the 9th... Itz because I did nothing at all on that day. It was a peculiarly ordinary day in fact.. Everything was plain normal right from the morning i woke up, study and sleep and night... Kak Izzatti told me that I have to get used to it for another 3 years at least.
In actual fact, it wasn't that bad la.. I got pre and post celeb, what more can I ask for?

However the point is, this birthday is a near perfect parameter of the situation right now...
I can really see the difference in my situations back in June and now in November. In just 5 months, things had been like heaven and earth.

5 months ago, all this seems impossible. A place in a varsity seems tough enough already, what more a birthday celebration where I still have people around me to celebrate with. Then came july and my luck started to change up till now...

Having a birthday celebration this year is like Miracle, having my coursemates and aiesecers around, its Magic.

Hence thanks everyone for remembering my day.. I really want to post some photos but it seems that they havent do so in FaceBook, so i'll do it in the next post...

take care people.. i've got to continue my work.. cyaz aitez.. and thanks... from deep down my heart

cyaz and thanks people

Friday, November 7, 2008

Lone Battle

When you feel the weight of the world is on shoulders, what do you do?

You give up?

You dream of getting away?

Or you work on?


This is one of the question I threw to myself before my exam this morning.

Today I had one of the heaviest examination sessions of my life. 6 hours of Calculus and Statistic. After the exam, I got so numb that the only thing I felt is the chest pain I got halfway during my statistics examination.


When I was going through calculus this morning, I observed a lot of things. It doesn’t mean I’m dreaming or spacing, but how do you expect me not to see things happening beside me?

There were a total of 9 people around me in the examination hall….

The first one left an hour later, then followed by the second guy 30 minutes later. At the end of the exam, there are only 4 people left around my table… I was really tempted to go out and give up on my exams because it was so bloody tough. It was even tougher then STPM my god!! To make things worst, my statistics was even tougher than calculus.


I was so torn apart, flipping through questions like nobody’s business. And then a vague voice came in my head.



Giving up? Is that even you?



What the hell, my head is talking to me? I got to be crazy, Wake up my boy!! Cripes!!

And is that moment, I know, I need inspiration quick…

Obama.. that didn’t do the trick..

He is an inspiration to me but that thatz a whole different inspiration


In search for inner strength, I remembered my journey to the university… Now, thatz not an inspiration, thatz a reality check… But it worked…


4.30 pm : Pens down, eyes shut, air grasped…. And right in that moment, I knew, things aint gonna change if I give up now. The hardest man to fight in endurance like this is yourself because in the exam hall, you are not sparring against the paper, you are sparring with yourself. The lazy self against the hardworking one, the hard headed one against the side where you will give up .


4.33 pm : All eyes on the paper again and this time, I will try to do everything in it…

You’ll find it funny when 3 minutes can change someone’s preference just like a snap of a finger. It is this 3 minutes, I renewed my endurance and I was able to sit through the paper till the very end.


Though the paper was tough (It was bloody tough!!!), I know I had tried my best. Though my best wasn’t enough in some contexts but I’ll still have to move forward as my journey doesn’t ends here.


I'll take a rest from here.. cyaz

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Hot Potatoes

Ahha... I know this is a funny title for a post...

It is actually a game I played in AIESEC.... It goes something like this. Everyone forms a circle, and each circle of approximately 10 people will be given a potato. Then we actually need to toss the potato around by calling the person's name in the opposite side. It was quite easy at first when we have only one potato.. But things got tougher and tougher when we are given more and more potatoes...

Anyhow... the moral of the game is....
We are quite efficient when handling a singular task.
But things get tougher when we have to multi-task...

My situation now = hot potato...

hahaha.... Yea, it had been quite stressful this week and the next 2 weeks ahead. All i ever did was waking up and start studying... The only thing which keep my head on the ground is by not turning nocturnal. Being a nocturnal creature is the last thing I need during this season as I dont want my mind to be in sleep-mode when i'm in the examinations hall...


Here are my bibles...lol... How far I'll go in the exam will depend on these books..



Welcome to my tactical office.. There is only room for one... lol



Thatz me.... Man At Work

Thatz all from me...Yea its a very short post as I dont have much time after studying.. My eyes are kinda heavy le...anyway I'll have another post on tuesday i hope as it will be a very special day.. (Hidup Obama!!)

take care and continue ur hard work!!