Sunday, October 26, 2008

Wings to Fly

I'm so refeshed and recharged rite now...
Back in my home, to a place where I belong......
And all I ever did from yesterday till today is sleep...

This sleep ain't the same as last time where I slept to kill time... Thatz laziness..
The sleep I had now is to restore my energy which i had lost for the past 3 weeks.. so its diff la okay

Don't worry, tomorrow I will kickstart my engine once again for the next 3 weeks...
But as usual, I need inspiration to work on... last three weeks, the motivation came from me not being able to go home for mom's birthday. How about now?... Believe it or not, it came from youtube...

Remember the good old adverts from petronas. Yea, it always work well in getting messages across and some of it gets my eye watery sometimes... But this one does inspire me a lot...



Its the new deepavali advert from Petronas....
Its about this father who works hard so that one day his son can achieve his ambition to become a pilot...
The story is so simple, yet, we can relate it to our life...

We all have tough times... Like my mom said, it is up to us whether we want to make the best out of it or not... Even through tough times, courage, determination and lots of love can give us wings to fly... Anything less will leave us stranded not knowing what to do...

As a person who has big goals in life, tough times are always here for me to endure. I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. But I was born with love and care. Love from my family and sooner in live, love from my friends as well. If I ever said i give up during this process, I will just waste their hope and expectations on me...

In the end, giving up ain't a choice for me. I only have a choice to be courageous to face the task, determine for success, or all of it.

Thank you god for giving me a wake up call that I shall not fail any of them as they already gave me wings so I can fly high next time...

cyaz people... and good luck in your examinations...

Friday, October 24, 2008

Pulling Through

Fooh.....
Itz finally over...
Itz not that over yet la coz i still have the exams but at least my 3 hectic weeks had past by just like a snap of a finger....

For the past 2 to 3 weeks, things was kinda "weird" for me because I've never had such hectic schedule for a long time already. The last time i remembered was June 2005 where I have to juggle concert and marching practices alongside with exams. Its quite similar now actually with me juggle multiple tasks.

There was even once where i had to be in 2 places at one time...
GOD!!! why people always need to screw up my schedule by having extra classes that clashes with my current class?!!!
nvm, its over... now... relax....

I find it quite funny though during the rush.. the only thing i thought of are my home and more time. I only miss home when i'm messed up.. lol... I'm not too sure about that but thatz at least what my mom told me

Amidst all of that craziness, I do understand that human's utmost potential is unleash when their situation pushes them to the limit.

Like people say, you wont draw out the trump card until you really have to. I did not draw out any card la but I know why people are at their best when they are on a rush. It it because they have no time to for error. In other words, they have no time to waste and no time to crap either. Everything they do have to be accurate as they dont have time to run trails and error. Hence, their best ideas and work comes out this way

Of course, people of such can be pretty ruthless. They can be kinda cruel in slashing crappy ideas of other people like no body's bussiness. And to make them feel like thier time is used wisely, they expect you to follow thier ideas... aikz..

Pro and cons la... you know the game....

I've become a bit of those in the past week but luckily i didnt hurt anyone.... I really need my old self back, hence i'm going back to ipoh... To get some rest and self reflection and of course to gear up for my exam as well

cyaz people and hopefully all changes in me for the past 3 weeks are for the good...

Bye USM and Hello Ipoh.... I'll be back in penang by tuesday..

Monday, October 20, 2008

Reasons...

Hey people.. I'm so sorry that this is not updated frequently...

I wanted to blog today but I'm just too tired as i'm jammed up with work...

Hopefully I'll be fully recharge and there will be one this thurdays.. I'll try my best

take care people


Saturday, October 11, 2008

Snapping out of it

Me : hey mom.. Sorry, I couldn't be back tomorrow for your Birthday.

Mom : Its okay, just concentrate on your studies alright

Me : I will try my best la... The next two weeks is going to be hell with tons of work to be done. I
really need a break after that.

Mom : What try your best? You MUST do your best... Don't just fret.. Look at your dad, sometimes he is free and sometimes troublesome customers hogs him for days or week... Everyone is busy but its up to you yourself whether you want to make the best out of it or not. get it or not?


Yea... I will and must do my best..

Sometimes, when i need some people to wake me up, my family still works best for me. I am tired now but at least i know my parents want to see me doing well.. especially my mom...

Okla... I've told you how busy I am rite but you'll never know till you see my schedule rite.. okay.. here it is

13/10 Monday BM presentation and Calculus test 3
14/10 Tuesday BM essay test and Entrepreneurship Presentation

17/10 Friday Calculus Quiz 8, Aiesec presentation and Programming assignment dateline
18/10 Saturday Programing test 2
19/10 Sunday Aiesec's Last general training for the sem and LC Jalan Jalan
20/10 Monday Statistic Test 1

23/10 Thursday Minor in Management test 2
24/10 Friday Statistic assignment 2 dateline

25/10 Hopefully I am still well and healthy...hahahaha

Okla... let make it this way okay.... I'll put in my maximum effort for the two weeks just for you mom since its your birthday.. Usually i do it for myself but now, why not as a "birthday" gift since i can't make it back home tomorrow, I do it for my mom... I'll promise you I will do my best.. not try...

Happy Birthday Mom... love you lots!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Reality : Face it or Deny it

Hey fellas....

Its 2.34 am now and my work is no where near done for the next two weeks....
My schedule is hectic due to some #$%& lecturer who doesn't know how to set exam time. She even screwed up my study plan and all I have left is the clock ticking loudly with every second passing by faster and faster.

Actually i have two choices, either to face it where i have to study round the clock or just live in the state of denial thinking that every little thing is going to be alright and I just have to sleep back and chill...

oh my... two weeks seems like two months....

the time isn't enough for me to prepare and yet the time is too much for me to stand...

Sunday, October 5, 2008

October Rush...

My short break had come to an end....
And its time to go back to the campus...
to the place where sea breeze greets me when I'm messed up,
and where the blazing sun shines on me when I'm down....

I do like my varsity life a lot, especially due to the fact that I am with the best group of people at the best time in the arguably best varsity in the nation. But why am I so tired of going back there. I guess there is only one reason which is the next two months will be pretty hectic for me. I have a total of 5 test, 2 assignments and 1 presentation to be done in 3 weeks time and two weeks later after that, I will sit for my first ever formal examinations after my STPM last year.

And everything will start tomorrow when I step into the bus back to the island in the sun. One thing for sure, I know I will be a different person tomorrow onwards. I knew this holiday wouldn't bring me much effort in studies, hence i used it to do some self reflection instead besides the studying la of course. I knew I have a lot of disadvantage compared to my coursemates. I dont have as much energy in them and furthermore, I dont think I have as much passion in statistics compared to them.

For every lowpoint, there must be a way to counter them. First of all, I still have to accept the fact that I'm different as my journey to the uni needs me to cross a long and winding journey. I will be more appreciative of my situation then anyone else and I still do at this very moment. And more importantly, I am here for a reason, which is to find a reason to be in the society. I may not have much interest in statistic but I can still study hard for me to enter into geophysics next time. I still and have to work hard to get into the best situation.

Now that everything seems to be good, I still cant be contented because good ain't best. Probably with this attitude will have an upperhand among the rest... probably.... Another thing which my old schoolmates told me can be an upperhand is my La Sallian way of life, the faith, zeal and community.

After some musings, I realised that I am already living the la sallian way subconsciouly. And believe it or not, it is the only thing which makes us different from the pack. This should be nice and yea, October Rush should be fine.. I've been through hectic months this year like February in Citrus,so this shouldn't be a problem. The only thing different is mental fitness which plays a big part this month compared to physical fitness and Optimism needed last february.

So am I prepared? I hope I am and I will by the time i wake up tomorrow because work waits for no man and success is for one to grab. Furthermore, I know there is someone with me although she lives 500km away but still, she will be able to give me the spirit and mentality needed to face the rush...

October rush, here I come.....