Tuesday, September 30, 2008

World, Hold On

Hi fellas.... Hows life treating you all so far...
Mine was pretty good and I got feeling this may last a long long time....
Though varsity life is still gonna be hectic as ever, but at least I am happier now. Together with this kind of positive energy, hopefully i will pull through the adrenaline rush for the months of October and November....

So as I told you in the last blog, I was going to attend some leadership development seminar (LDS) organized by Aiesec in USM rite... Yeap, I've been there and looking forward to more of it in the future. This camp really gave me some great insights on what I really am at this very moment. And its now that i realise that I still have a lot to learn.
You may say I've been to or facilitate numerous Leadership Training camps... first one in form 2 up till LTC in form 6 and even the National Service. But truth to be said, training then isn't the same as this one in the varsity level.

It is this moment in this camp I knew, I know almost nothing...

Come on.. after 13 years of education and you are telling me that you've learn no leadership or what-so-ever? Isn't this a little absurd? Okla, its not like zero but those things aren't practical anymore especially when I've reached the unversity level.

At the very first session of LDS, I begun to humble myself and learn from square one again. And yes, I am going to change again....
I think people like kee cheong will know that I had a drastic change once in lower six. Well, lets take this as an "improvement" or "fine-tuning" then... So dont worry, Wai Soon/wilson is still here to stay. So what did the Aiesec LLDS really did to make me consider another make over?



So BASICALLY (ahem, i think those fellas from LLDS will be laughing when they see this word),
Aiesec is something really new to me. The way and approach they teach you how to lead is completely different. Well, they will make you think critically on extremely sensitive world issue. Actually this is the most interesting part and I enjoyed it the most. These sessions, which are called "world cafes" are good for me in the sense I can really give my thoughts without siding or irritating others as the rest are doing the same. After some world cafe sessions, I think they realise that my thoughts are actually kinda liberal and rebellious at times... All thanks to the teachings of Ernesto Che Guevara who challenge people to think big from other people's point of view.

Next up, there new things include a management simulation which require us to "manufacture and sell burgers" to extremely demanding customers. Now this is new for me and for the first time, I didnt have the urge to take charge on it as I know i'm still in the learning process here. The cultural simulation was fun too. Though it is less challenging but the things we learned are as much as the management simulation.

I can't elaborate much because I know others wont be able to understand it as you really have to see it ourself. Thank god LLDS comes early for me. If not, I really would have think that my leadership learning process was long done and I will have trouble coping with the new leadership styles in the uni next time in the future...

Trying to be as humble as can be, I will learn from scratch again and hopefully in 3 months time, I will be a full fledge leader...

anyway, here is some photos of my campz...hehe

Here are the only guy participant in the LLDS



This is Mcdonalds at 3.00AM




Okay.. thatz all from me fellas.. I've just came back from KL btw and its already 3 now... Hence world, hold on, and brace ourself for the new improved me in 3 months time....

cyaz people and take care

Monday, September 22, 2008

Walk With Me

Ah, finally I'm free to get back to the cyberspace once again. I've just finished my calculus test 3 hours ago and I know you may think its in the afternoon now... Nope.. its 1.00 am.. we have night tests in USM... its pretty common to have test on nights and weekends here... even on sundays... haha

For the past week, it has been work all day and night. Assignments, test, and more assignments came in. It is like I wonder when will this pile of work gonna end, another heap came along... its gonna be crazay by next month. During thi process, I found another part of myself though... A part which I dont know but others can see.... and of all things, its selflessness...

Frankly speaking. To be selfless or not hasn't been quite an issue back in St Mikes. Probably we are so closely knitted that helping others had been second natured to most of us, especially the pure Mikez. When I came to uni, I can't sit still looking at other people struggling with their work. Altough I was struggling especially during the first 2 weeks in USM, i just can't keep my eye blind towards people who are in need...

However, I was aware of one thing..
Others are keeping silent when they see me struggling back then... i have to find my solution and work my arse off to catch up and no one is willing to lend a hand. Why am I helping them now? Especially when it comes to issues like studies, everyone work as an individual unit. Probably the others thought that in the uni, we need to work to the top and beat the rest....

erm.. beat the rest?...
This isn't the old Scottish Examination System you know where people need to get to the top few percentage to graduate with an Honours degree. We all can get first class honours together.. Yea, all 22 of us and why dont we start working TOGETHER now? I still remember GuoJian fret once in the class last year, I remember he said something like this...

"Hey people, why wanna keep everything to yourself, Isn't it nice if we all get 4.o together?"

If I'm not mistaken he was refering to the trials paper from other school which some of the classmates isn't circulating and keeping it to themself. Okay, back to the idea, which is plain simple and beautiful, ain't it better if we gain equal success together. When my coursemates asked why I share out so many insider information which i found in the internet myself with them. I know i can always have an upper hand but I am the type of person who wants people to gain as much as I know and hopefully, they will share theirs too... I like to gain success but it will be better if my friend gain it as well, right?


"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend.


Ever since I took the first step, my friends here are more willing to share their insiders with me, as they realise the real advantage is sharing and not keeping things to yourself which only you yourself think its a secret weapon... of course, its good to keep some tricks up ur sleeves la sometimes.. haha


thatz all from me... I think my next post onward will be with pictures as I brought my camera... Next Stop, LLDS Aiesec!!

cyaz and remember.... selflessness never kills!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Change, We Can Believe In

For constant readers of wilsonng.cjb.net, I am sure you know I tried real hard to keep my blog as non-political as possible. However, people usually asked me since I'm so into the political development of Malaysia, how come you don't have any comments at all? Am I just an observer? Frankly speaking, I was never an observer but I've always feared the cyber law of malaysia would put me into trouble if constantly keep on doing blogs as such.
There is a first for everything, but I dont think this post will be as radical as you think. Just the two cents of my mind.

Before we get on with the "hot" issue, I would like to measure how Malaysian I'm in the first place. I am a chinese bloke, who follows malay pop culture and eats indian food 60% of the time... Aik, it sound like I am pretty jumble up (or rojak), thatz what being Malaysian all about! If you say I am racist, I can't be coz I am a mixture of 3 races all together. But if we hate or despise some race based party, we will be labelled as racist. How can this be?... if a person dislikes a certain party, it means that he/she dislikes the administration of the party and the people in it... not because he/she hate the origin of the party's admintrators.


These few days had been quite a rollercoaster ride for Malaysian Politics. With a RPK, Teresa Kok and Tan Hoon Cheng being nabbed by ISA, it makes us ponder, are Malaysian politics as stable as it claims? If you don't know what ISA was initially used for, let me enlighten you a little... It was actually used to control the Communist during the Emergency period. Now, you be the judge whether ISA is still relevent now since its enactment at 1948.. Dude, its 60 years later and we are still using it? You may say our First Class neighbour Singapore also has the ISA but you must know one thing, they are using it to nab Jemaah Islamiah Terrorist and not some reporter from some newspaper!

I always say that Malaysia ain't a place for Malaysian chinese anymore. All of my friends agreed except for one who challenged me to think, Jess. " Do you think that this issue is a race issue or a national issue?" To ponder about it, she sounds right. We chinese ain't the only one feeling the pain. In fact, even our Malay and Indian counterparts are feeling the same. Malaysian Chinese aren't not the only one deprived from equal opportunities. The Bumis in the out-skirts arent benefiting much from the goverment and ever since the Hindraf, we know how badly deprived the indians are.

So in a nutshell, Malaysia is "non-inhabitant" anymore?!

This is a serious matter. Its impossible that a land with resources such as petroleum and palm oil can't develop good enough for 27 million people. I think what my dad says itz true sometimes, we dont look like a country that produce petrols.. lol... I think we will be dead if the oil really runs out one day. Most of the malaysian are living in a state of denial. Especially those who are ruling the country. However, most of up are waking up to see the truth. If an admin who punishes the "person who cried fire and leave the arson on the loose", we know the admin is pretty screwed up as they dont even know who is right and who is wrong.

I would like to take the US as the benchmark here... the americans had become so liberal and open, they even voted the first Black presidential canditate to run for presidency... Come on, a place like US had racial sagregation once had heal through time. How about Malaysia?.. when is our turn to truly become Malaysian. Frankly speaking, I dont like to label myself as chinese, I prefered to be labeled as a Malaysian instead because I am born here, not in China.

So will there be a change which we can believe in? I hope there is and I feel its coming, really soon...

Be Malaysian, Do the Right Thing.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Confessions of an Analytical Mind

Dilemmas,
Unnecessary stress,
Sleepless nights,
Unexplainable headache........

All these problems got to origin from somewhere. And i always think that its from my external locus of control, which means external factors. But the source of everything is quite simple..

Its all in my head!

The problem is i analyse my surroundings too much. I always think it is better to think 10 steps ahead, then i will be at least a few step ahead of the rest. This is good, providing it involves around work only. But because it had been my in practise since 3 years ago. It had assimilated into the way i live too. Sometimes I tend to analyse over things which seems so trivial to others. And it gets worst when that particular "thing" involves major changes in my life. I will think a few steps ahead from the rest and I'll just keep it to myself to muse.

The most recent situation should be my dilemma over UTP and USM. But the verdict had been finalised, I will stay put in USM and no more changes will be done. It is simply because UTP won't accept Degree Intake on the January intake, so I would wanna waste one year to wait till July next year and continue from scratch because it will take me a total of 5 years to finish my engineering degree... My god, then its equivalent to a Medical Degree!!

The funny thing is this, 2 hours after I decided I am staying put in USM, The Ministry Of Higher Education announce USM as an Apex university(Accelerated Programme for Excellence) , making it the most eligible varsity in the nation. Then i told myself this, is this a sign from up above or what? Whatever it is, at least it will brighten up my dreams.
I know most of you will think that I've already give up on my dreams when I say I'm staying put...

Hell NO!

I will try my best to enter GeoPhysics next year in April. Of course, the search of great power comes great sacrifices. I need a good result in order to change courses in USM. I just hope that it being an Apex now wouldn't deter me from getting into the course.

However, if I still can't get into GeoPhysics, I'll stay put in Stats and make the best out of my situation. Life got to move on la.... So it is just that simple.. why did I ever think it is that complicated in the first place...

Keep it simple and take one step at a time...

Hence, having an analytical mind have its consequences at times.. In fact most of the time because we ain't working 24-7 rite....

I shall learn to keep my social life simple but I wont loose my analytical mind either as someday, it will have a cutting-edge againts the rest..


sorry for any typo or grammatical mistakes.. its pretty "early" in the morning now.. you know what I mean